Monday, November 10, 2014

I got My Own Kids

I'm married and I just gave birth to 43 kids!

That's obviously a lie.

I'm not married, single and available. I'm not even pregnant.
But yes, I have 43 kids.

and by that I mean 43 students.
I prefer calling them 'kids' instead of 'students', I don't know why.

Ben through thick and thin a lot because of them.
They were like the kids who got super power ...
No matter how loud you shouted at them, no matter how fierce you are, no matter what kind of punishment you gave them,  THEY WON'T LISTEN TO YOU.


I get mad at them almost everyday, but I never cry because of their attitude.
What can you expect? They are KIDS.
You can expect them to act like an adult. 

These kids... they are reeeeeeeeaaaaaallllyyyy talkative.
They talked non-stop in class. 
Before I start teaching, while I'm teaching, after I'm done with teaching, after I get out from the class...
they just won't shut up.
It's really annoying... reeeeeeaaalllyyy annoying.
Sometimes, they won't give me any cooperation to learn what I'm teaching.
That make me sad.
I'm excited to teach, I'm excited making the teaching materials, but the kids just won't give their attention.

"This is my practicum. My marks will definitely affected because of them. I won't be given a good mark for observation. shit ! shit ! shit !"
That was my first thought.

After almost 10 weeks teaching them...
I realized that I shouldn't care about the marks, about the lecturer's comment.
Because my actual responsibility is giving them knowledge.
My responsibility is not MY MARKS and LECTURER'S COMMENTS.
Well, during the observation with my lecturer, I was observed in my friend's class. I borrowed her class.
According to my lecturer, my classroom management was good (that's a relieve).
BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTT.... She said my materials were limited.
hah! ok.
I accepted the comments with all my heart anyway because I don't care anymore about my marks and her comments.
No matter how annoying they were, I became stronger because of them... Stronger inside and out.

The last day of my practicum was the best and the saddest.
The best is of course, I finally can get a rest.
The saddest?
My kids ran away from their class to my room just to hug me. And some of them cried, asking me not to go away from this school.
I was like "awwww~" but no, I can't stay.
I received some gifts from them. 
(Wanna take a picture, but I already opened all of them, the picture will come out ugly without the wrapper so, no picture.)

Before they went home, I went to my class and remind them somethings... hehehe~
Let only 4 Cempaka knows what did I remind them.

Dear kids,
Please grow up well, be good men and good women when you grow up.
Don't forget about the 5 things I remind you in class.

And for future teachers,
prepare yourself physically and mentally.

p/s: "Being a teacher is not an option, but a privilege." -Tun Mohd Zarul Mohd Zaabah

Lots of Love,

Sunday, July 6, 2014

Maybe It Was My Fault

Maybe it was my fault for not telling you,
Maybe it was my fault for not being honest with you,
Maybe it was my fault for waiting for you to say it first,
Maybe it was my fault.

2AM waking up while staring at the window,
I was scared to say 'I love you'... so how?
We are just friends ... that won't change till now.
I really wanted to end this show.

"I like her" you said,
No it was not me,
She was a one lucky girl,
who caught your eyes and heart.

Maybe it was my fault for not telling you,
Maybe it was my fault for not being honest with you,
Maybe it was my fault for waiting for you to say it first,
Maybe it was my fault.

Do you know how painful my heart is?
I pray everyday for your happiness with her.
Did I sincerely pray for it?
I'm confuse too.

Maybe it was my fault for not telling you,
Maybe it was my fault for not being honest with you,
Maybe it was my fault for waiting for you to say it first,
Maybe it was my fault.


I'm just writing this for a guy whom I really like (or love?) a lot.
Should I smile or should I cry?

Lots of Love,

Saturday, May 24, 2014

The 'You'

You ignore me, 
but I like you.

You do nothing,
yet I fall for you.

I miss you, 
even though my name never cross on your mind.

Should I wait for you?
Should I wait until the day where you finally realized that I'm "standing" in front of you?


I guess I have to give up on you because you have someone that you like, a lot.

Lots of Love,



It's been a while, right?

Well, I am currently reminiscing all of my 6 semesters.
Reminiscing? yes.
I have successfully finished all of the subjects for my Diploma. 

It feels good, but then ... I miss my friends.
Memories with them from the 1st semester till 6th semester were something that will never slip from my mind.

To be honest, I feel like I have a family in Shah Alam, a second family because of you guys.
I would like to call you guys Family Shah Alam.

To the boys,


With you guys around throughout the days, I can finally feel what it's like to have brothers.
Annoying + cute + sweet + handsome + Annoying + Annoying = all of the boys listed above.
I didn't have the chance to have a brother... I was supposed to have one. But, Mama miscarriaged.
On a second thought, I think Allah sent me Malik, Ahmad, Tahir, Mustaqim and Ferhat to replace my lil brother after 20 years. Maybe. Just a 'maybe'.
Whatever it is, thanks for being my brothers. :)

To the girls,


Thanks for adding up the colors to my life.
I love how Ainaa almost cried when she said goodbye to me and said "The Co-Director that I respect",
yeah ... Community Service, me as the Co-D. Please always remember me. hahaha! 
"Co-D je respect? Director takde?"
hahaha! Next time, puji Tahir sekali ye Ainaa... :)
Malisa, the Muslimah that I respect the most. Her actions, her words, the way she speaks... Allahu... I can't even be like her. She was so full of purity and I'm jealous.
Alia, the brave girl who brave enough to confess that she likes Tahir... Bella, the girl who wants me to settle her down with Syazwan... and Shira, the girl who won't give up on this one Kazakhstan guy. hahaha! 
I'll miss all of you, girls.

To the girls whom I met since the 1st semester,


Thanks for laughing with me, Thanks for insulting me, Thanks for joking with me, Thanks for fighting with me, Thanks for crying with me.
Thanks for everything.
You guys had taught me about the true meaning of FRIENDSHIP.
I hope we will be friend till we die. hopefully. :)

Malik, Tahir, Bella, Alia and Mira ... Study hard and study smart for the next semester, okay?
Inform us about your study progression on Whatsapp :)

I appreciate every second, every minute, every hour and every day that we spent together. 
Thanks for everything, FSA. :')

And here's some of our pictures taken on 23/05/2014, right after we finished our last paper^^

The picture that sum up all of #FSA,

Lots of Love,

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Microteaching Project

Told ya I'll update the next post in 2014. I keep my promise.


ok. Assalamualaikum.

First of all, I was actually really smiling while typing for this post.

Because our Microteaching Project got full mark!

and guess what? our of 7 groups, we are the one and only group that got full mark.
Miss said she couldn't find any mistake on our manual report. hehehe~

It was worth it to stay up from 08:30PM until 04:30AM.
Pinggang nak tercabut, bontot kebas semua ada.

I had to stay at my friend's house for the project. That's one of the big sacrifice I made ( big ke? ) 

It was not easy to set up the stage for the puppet show for Little Red Riding Hood.
We used a really hard box.
There were 3 scenes in Little Red Riding Hood; the Red Riding Hood's house, the woods, and the Grandma's room.
We drew all of the scenes.
 The characters. Yes. We drew all of the characters too.
Well, Mira was the person who drew all the characters since she was the only person who got the drawing talent.

We wrapped the stage with glitter paper to make it looks more attractive.

So here I provide some of the behind the scene of our Little Red Riding Hood Puppet Show.

*the seaweed is mine*

*we had a fight for the songs that were played while we're doing our work*

*that was the Red Riding Hood's house*

So, it came out like in the picture below.

The curtain was made out of the tissue-like paper.
cute, kan? hehehe~

And below is the picture of our complete Puppet Show.
The background can be changed from the back of the box, there's a long rectangle hole at the back of this box.
And then another long rectangle hole was made on top of the box to move the characters.

And as you can see, these are the characters in Little Red Riding Hood. ^^

I was really happy with this teaching material.
It will surely go for the Teaching Material Exhibition. weehee~

Here I also want to include the people who worked hard for the Little Red Riding Hood Puppet Show!

You'll know which one is me if you recognize me. lol xD


Our full mark reminded me of an old beggar that we met at Tesco while having our lunch.
He suddenly came to us and gave each of us a tissue. 
So, each of us gave him RM1.
He then immediately prayed for us.
Aku hanya mampu amin kan doa dia.

Thinking back about the incident, I think it was also one of the side "income" for us to get full mark for this project besides our effort of staying up late.

Allah itu Maha Besar.

Lots of Love,

Monday, December 16, 2013

Berhabuk again and again


Hello fab babes.

Yep. This blog will continue to be dusty again and again.
My latest update was on 08/10/2013, right after I finished my final examination for semester 3.
Semester 4 was havoc. 
Havoc is a situation in which there is much destruction or confusion FYI.

So yeah.
Destruction and confusion did occur.
This semester was really hard, like the hardest semester ever!


#1 Lesson plans


We were like "DARN!" "OH S***!" "F***!"
From the three examples of the expression above, I said one of it in class, in silence of course.
It was hard for us since we were introduced with KBSR lesson plan from semester 2 until semester 3.
Then everything suddenly changed.

Do you know the scene in the movie The Chronicles of Narnia where the 4 siblings, Peter, Edmund, Susan and Lucy took a train to school but they ended up arrived in Narnia?
Yeah. The situation is like that.
Everything happens in a blink.

oh hey~ sup Prince Caspian.

#2 The subjects

1. Multimedia in Education
2. Philosophy of Education
3. Critical Appreciation
4. Child Development
5. Microteaching

I would choose Philosophy and Child Development as the hardest subjects.

Philosophy .........

 p/s: Schopenhauer, I love you.

 Child Development ...
Let's see ... hmmmm ...
It was a very interesting subject where you learn about baby, infants and early childhood.
It was seriously fun to learn about kids.
This subject helps us a lot in understanding children.

"Easy to pass, easy to fail."
Madam, you were right.


These 2 reasons might look nothing to you, but it's everything for me.
Pity me. Pity us, the teachers.

Anyway, TESLiens hwaiting^^

let me stop my writing here.
see you next year.

p/s:to those people who say "teaching is easy", please go to a school and teach.
And then burn yourself.

Lots of Love,

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

An Official Goodbye

I, student of DTESL for MAY '12 Cohort hereby announced that we are still managed to survive until Semester 3 and ended it with final examination, like always.
Thou shall not forget all of our hardships along the semester.
Thou shall not forget we will meet again for Semester 4 on November.


Okay. WTH.
That was just a crap-not-really-crap.

So yeah.


Alhamdulillah, the examination went well.
"The longer,the harder."
Yep. It was true. 
The subjects are getting tougher... well, obviously.
Assignments are getting more and more boring.
Even projects are the same.

Anyway, I will go for my practicum next year.
Hope everything will run smoothly.


I don't even know what to write anymore.

 Crush, Pretty Vampire and Baby, thanks for everything. LOL.
Crush, I'll see you when I see you ... you too, Pretty Vampire.
That's all I guess.

Lots of Love,

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

It's Been a While...


haha~dah lama tak update blog ni.
berhabuk macam tu ja...

I don't even know what to update.
About my study,I'm currently in my 3rd semester.
still got a long way to finish my diploma.

let's just talk about the past flashmob and technorobic thingy since I don't know what to say anymore about my study.

First of all,congratulation to my university for breaking the record with the Largest FlashMob Participation for Malaysia Book of Records.
6886 people participated including me.
YDP Agong came to the launching ceremony. :)

It was such a good and tiring day for us.

*with my crazy bubbly lovely friends*

For the technorobic competition,I think we did quite well.
The seniors named us as Psycho Dancers.
On the first day of the competition,we saw a lot of fantastic performances.
So,we went home with the hope of not getting into the final round.
Fortunately,we got a message from our senior,Prem saying that we made it into the final round.
It was a very shocking news for us because we never expect we could go into the finals.
Plus,for the groups who managed to enter the finals,we need to add 3 more minutes in the technorobics.
So,it was 10 minutes in total.

I think that's all for today.
Just a short update.


Lots of Love,

Friday, April 19, 2013

祝你生日快乐,鹿晗哥. :)

Sooman ada family digelar #KLSM,
Salam perkenalan saya Cleaner Bangunan SM,
Hari ni birthday siapa?
Tanya lagi......Luhan la ! ^^

Jalan-jalan sepak pokok semalu,
Psy bergangnam digigit semut,
Happy birthday baby Lulu,
Always stay cute~^^

Kawan India dipanggil macha,
Couple comel dipanggil HunHan,
Super Junior gedik berA-CHA,
Selamat hari jadi Luhan ~^^

Lots Of Love,

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

To 2012 SPMers.

As all of you know,today is the day 2012 SPM Candidates receive their results.

To the students who got straight A's...a BIG congratulations from me to all of you.
You've done well. ^^

To those students who didn't achieve the expected result or a good result,
Don't be sad and please don't even try to commit suicide.
Of course,for most people SPM is EVERYTHING,SPM is like your LIFE AND DEATH.
God must have plan something better for you ~^^

To the students who want to further their study in University,Matriculation,or even Form 6,
Good luck and all the best !
Make the right decisions for your future. :)


Lots of Love,